fletch

Posted: March 25, 2013 at 7:06 am

maybe he was doomed from the moment of his birth…a crappy breeder who created a sodium deficient, kidney flawed, hemophiliac puppy with a dicey temperment. maybe fletch was doomed even before his birth, maybe he was doomed at his conception because of a greedy, irresponsible human who was out to make money.

in any case…none of it was fletcher’s fault….he had no control or choice over any of what he ws dealt.

maybe if he had gone somewhere besides here with us..maybe things would have gone better for him. mystic grew up here into a really nice dog…she learned all of the good things from the other dogs. but maybe fletcher because he was different, more broken, more flawed..maybe he learned too much of the negatives here of being a dog.

so many maybe’s, so many if’s, so many i wish’s….

if fletcher had just gotten sick and died like we had expected..none of us would be dealing with the emotional chaos he leaving has created. we deal with death seems like almost every day…it is sad, it hurts but because we are powerless and it is expected, we are ok.

but fletch was not supposed to die this way.

somehow i have to let go of the darkness of his death and find again the light of fletch being fletch.

he was a good puppy in so many ways…sweet, affectionate, happy. he also was a pain in the ass like almost all puppies…busy, mouthy, almost always in the way.
in his very best moments, fletcher was sweet..affectionate and loving to his human and K9 family. and he was absolutely the cutuest puppy in the whole world..just looking at him would make the hardest heart melt.

when the other animals die here, we find comfort in that we took them in, we nutured them, we loved and cared for them when no one else would. and we did the same for fletcher, expecting his end would come when he was too sick to continue to live.

and i guess maybe this is where i need to get my head to…fletcher didn’t die because he was a bad puppy or because i suck at rescue. he died because he was broken, past what i knew how to fix. the cards were stacked too high against him and me from the moment of his birth.

if he wasn’t so sick…if he wasn’t such an ass..if he wasn’t bred by some loser for a few hundred bucks…maybe, just maybe, fletcher would have had a decent chance.

but all of the what if’s will not change what is…and we lost a sweet 6 month old puppy because we couldn’t change what he was.

rest in peace fletcher, you were the very best dog that life let you be and none of this was in any way your fault.

you drove me insane like all puppies do, but i will forever love you and hope with all of my heart that where ever you are now is the best of everything that you deserved from the very beginning.

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sweet, innocent babe.

8 Comments on "fletch"

  • Janet Nicholson says

    Fletch was so lucky to be loved by all of you – and to have such wonderful family like Mystic, June, etc. Not all “damaged” dogs are given the wonderful life he had with you – you are probably going to mourn him more than the older ones – because they have had a life – poor little Fletch was not destined to have a long life – but he DID have a wonderful life with you guys – truly so sad how it ended – and we all mourn with you, Carol – you had no choice – and Fletch went to sleep with people who loved him – a lot better ending that what could have been.

  • Mo says

    Well put Carol.. this death was very difficult & … different..I will feel it for a long time and the “what if’s” roll around in my head when I think of him. SAINTS did give him the absolute best we could & you gave him the only chance he had. I will always remember him and I would like the honour to select a windchime for him..if you haven’t already.

    Run free, Run fast, play hard & sleep soundly Fletcher you have touched & taught us all and we will miss & think of you often.

  • Sherry Lynn says

    I REALLY wish the kennel clubs, municipalities, province, and country would do the responsible thing and enact bylaws and legislation to attempt to put an end to backyard breeding. There are so many puppies similar to Fletch created every day. Genetic illnesses, behaviour problems, pain and suffering, and over-full shelters are all by-products of this “industry”.

    It needs to stop!

  • Leila says

    If I knew you to make that tear emoticon I would. A very beautiful eulogy.

  • Bridget says

    i’m so glad you posted this, Carol.

  • Kimberley says

    This is so sad. I wish things were different for him and that he could’ve had the life he deserved. But he was so lucky to spend these few months at Saints and to be loved by you and all of the volunteers. He was such a sweet and cute puppy. I’ll always remember him. Rest in peace Fletcher.

  • Cheri says

    RIP sweet sweet puppy, I will miss your pain in the ass puppy stories.
    Thank you Carol for loving him and doing all you did for him.
    Hugs

  • Barbara DeMott says

    I actually thought the very same thing. Being involved with German Shepherd rescue in LA, I see the backyard breeders of a very complex, intelligent breed create animals with terrible health and behavior issues These noble dogs can be turned into a complete uncontrollable messes by poor breeding and environment. Not to mention, the numerous health problems too….
    The sadness is the life not lived by the young puppy but he was part of a much larger and uglier picture. Working to control the backyard breeders especially of pit bulls would be the legacy for Fletcher.

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