Category: “General”

the temps.

Posted: August 20, 2017 at 8:02 am

the past few weeks have been brutal but we don’t get to pick certain things in life…like when it decides to end. death is a certainty for all living things and our job is to live as well as we can.
for us that means helping others and not letting anger, resentment or hate rule our minds. there is enough of that dirty shit in the world, those kind of negative and destructive emotions sidelines the evolution of all mankind.

i will never say that love conquers all because love doesn’t conquer all. but a personal responsibility to framing the world around us in positive terms and a respect for all living creatures goes a long way to conquering some of the horrific problems in this world.
we are a species of conflict…
i see websites sobbing to save the life of a dog and yet promoting the killing of feral cats.
i see young girls swooning over love of their new horse and yet sending it off for auction a few years later when they can get something competitively better.
i see fathers loving and wanting the best for their sons but marching to destroy the hopes and dreams of other sons.
i see woman who love their babies shaming other mothers over breast and bottle, over attachment theories or cry it out.

do we remember that golden rule…do unto others as you would have them do unto you?
it is so fucking simple.
it basically means…don’t be an asshole.
no buts, no exceptions..just don’t be a jerk.
we can talk about our differences without tearing someones guts out.

on an animal rescue blog in preaching about kindness to animals, i am preaching to the choir of animal loving people.

but what about the muslims, the jews, that asshole racist who happens to be related to you? what about chickens and spiders, and homely old dogs?
what about the autistic child screaming uncontrollably in the next yard? what about the fat person in walmart wearing ill fitting clothes? what about the homeless who could have a shelter near your home? what about the syrians dying while escaping war in overloaded boats? what about your neighbor who hates barking dogs? what about vets who shoot arrows at stray cats? what about men who grab or beat woman, what about woman who hate couples of the same sex? what about a government that turns its back on minorities, on the disabled, on it’s veterans, on any one who is different then them?
nazi’s killing jews, jews killing palestians, muslims killing christians, christians killing muslims, whites killing blacks, blacks killing whites…human beings of this planet practicing genocide.

their hate, our hate, it really makes no is still hate surrounding us where ever we turn.

we can stand for what we believe in, we can work towards a better world…in big or small things we can really make a huge difference if we do unto others as we want to be done onto.
save a dog, save a cat, save a cow or a pig or a horse from slaughter. save a child from drowning in the sea, save a race or a religon from a bigotted, horribly violent victimization in this world.

for all of our sakes…save ourselves from destroying our humanity….but don’t try to do it with hate or anger or fear.
just do it because life is precious, it is a gift and it is for each of us temporary.
none of us can live forever, we are just temps..but we can use the time we have to make this world better.
it starts with making ourselves better.

hyde passed gently today.

Posted: August 19, 2017 at 6:24 pm

he came in a few months ago, we could see his owner was very ill. he wanted to ensure that his friend hyde was taken care of before his own life came to an end.
we realized quickly that all was not well with our new guy besides being old and blind and have spent the last few months trying to win a battle that we finally lost today.
hyde was a good and very sweet dog. he was well loved in life, both with his previous owner and with our staff and volunteers.
it was so sad that hyde’s best friend passed away leaving him behind. today we are sad that hyde has gone to join him.
rest in peace, sweet good dog, may you both be together and free on the other side.

more carrying on.

Posted: August 19, 2017 at 8:09 am

new old dog from NWT did not arrive as planned. his flight was delayed so the shelter decided in his best interests to send him a different day.
oh…and his name is king by the way.

new in tho is stella, a PB, unspayed english setter, she is only 9 yrs old. she is healthy but the reason i decided to take her is because of anxiety issues. she was a well loved working dog, she was used for hunting birds and deer but has always been an outside dog who apparently goes insane when inside. her family was an older couple, one suffering from dementia and the other with cancer and they were no longer able to care for her. i was worried that if turned into a traditional shelter, she might have great difficulty adjusting to a confined kennel environment. we have room so i thought she might do better here.

stella came in late yesterday afternoon. it was an interesting first night…and not in a good way. she is extremely anxious and nervous and when you are with her…submissive, until you get up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom. when i got back, she had mystic pinned in a corner, right on top of her, daring her to make a wrong move. i pulled her off, told her to knock it off and let mystic escape back up on to the bed and stella jumped right up after her. i held her off, again told her to knock it off but it took several long seconds for stella to change her focus from mystic to me and comply. the rest of the night was ok..stella settled back down on the bed on the floor beside me but mystic, luna and boomer huddled on the bed afraid to move.

now i get that stella is not in her right mind right now, extreme stress for an anxious dog affects their perceptions of impending threats and their reactions are heightened. but i need to be careful because my dogs have already dealt with the trauma results of pepper’s stress and their reactions were not pretty. so i need to be on my toes. i am not sure how long it will take stella to settle and come to terms with her world upside down and if she can find some comfort and joy in this new kind of life.
i will try to be careful and not fuck this up, underneath her anxiety is a really nice dog and she does need to learn to live in a house without going nutz in order to find her a really good home.

summer had her knee surgery yesterday, the vet came and did the surgery in the old rabbit room…thank you to the on site staff for staying late and dealing with it all (we were down three staff!) and to mo, lynn and laura coming up and helping us out! it was hugely appreciated!!!

big bear had his diabetes recheck…his insulin dose is going up again but we are making progress.

sheila and i interviewed three potential new board members with the skills we need to help move us into the future. we have always done a pretty good job here but all of us are grass roots, working in the trenches types, saints is evolving to need more than that. i am pretty excited about adding the future view and journey to our current day by day focus.

i did get to spend part of the day at the cabin with jenn and emmalyn. i did my laundry, we had lunch, did some furniture rearranging and played with em down at the beach. i need more time for things like this. it was a tough week, last night was tough too..i was awake a lot worrying about things and this weekend is shaping up to be fairly busy. it was a bad time to be switching to a new job but hopefully once things settle here and i find my new groove at work it will all eventually work out.
hope floats this is true…sooner than later too.

foster saint hendrix (aka scratch) has passed away

Posted: August 18, 2017 at 8:02 am

he was an old discarded pitty with an old man face. jenn came and met him and gave him the home of his dreams.
we are so very sorry for your loss jenn and so very grateful that hendrix was able to spend his last few years in a home that was truly amazing.

carrying on….

Posted: August 17, 2017 at 6:11 pm

clover is having a hard time. she tore off three nails today in a meltdown when one of the staff took ella out for a walk. and she started to flip out again when it was harry’s turn. we are going to close that room down over the weekend to decrease clovers stress. harry and ella will have to forgo walks for a few days until she settles, she needs both of them with her right now.

we had to split the rabbits again due to fighting which kind of sucks. we were hoping for 2 very large communal areas but now one of the communal areas has been split into 3 until we can build one more pen. whatever..the rabbits apparently get to dictate who gets to live where.

bif (the turkey) decided it was a brilliant idea to fence fight with ella the dog. there was tiny quarter inch wire between them but bif got her beak caught in the wire. she has split her beak and broken off the tip. the vets have seen her, cleaned and bandaged it and said it will heal. i am just shaking my head at the stupidity of both of them. fer chrissakes how hard is it to just ignore each other?

sad news for rudy, he is coming up to 31 years old now and has developed several melanoma tumors on his penis under the shaft..the vet said it is too extensive to surgically remove them so we will just watch and wait for them to cause him problems, he is palliative now.

summer the goat is going to have surgery on her knee within the next week or so. the vets have seen her many, many times regarding this knee, we have tried many, many different treatments. nothing is working so it is time to try to fix it surgically.

there was supposed to be a new dog coming here today for possible admission to saints..the family was a no show, tried calling but the mailbox is full so am not sure what is happening.

new old dog flying down from the North West Territories SPCA tomorrow morning…please god let him be a good boy, our asshole spaces are all used up.

these past couple weeks have been brutal for us…so many losses, short staffed, huge looming vet bills, lots of stress and sadness.
but we are coping…one problem, one issue solution, one heart break at a time…one foot in front of the other, eyes on the bouncing, erratic ball.

things will better, things will settle, they always do…but in the mean time, there is still work to do.

safe journey to saints new old north dog…sorry, i don’t yet know your name (huge thx to shelagh for picking him up at the airport tomorrow for us!).
here is his photo…

kind words from a saints supporter for the staff and volunteers

Posted: August 17, 2017 at 7:46 am

from bill…
I understand that things have been rough lately….. I am thinking of not only the precious animals but the wonderful people working so very hard at Saints. Please don’t get discouraged……….know that we all are so very grateful for your hard work. I wish we could do more.

another sad day at saints

Posted: August 16, 2017 at 9:02 pm

airabelle passed away today. when she came in from far up north, she had an aggressive mammary cancer. she had surgery to remove the tumors and altho we hoped it hadn’t, we knew it might have spread.
airabelle suddenly stop eating and began vomiting, we took her into the vets. the xrays and blood work were not conclusive…cancer or a massive internal abscess? she was rushed over to Boundry Bay Specialty Hospital for an emergency ultrasound and hopefully a possible surgery. unfortunately her liver was full of tumors and she was beginning to bleed out. airabelle was helped to pass peacefully away with erin and renee at her side.

airabelle was happy here, and erin was not just her primary caregiver…she was part of her family that was rooted in mutual love and respect. her shy and anxious daughter, clover. who depended on airabelle to make her world safe, feels alone and afraid right now.
but clover is not alone here, she has made friends with ella and harry and erin loves her as much as she loved her mother.
clover will be treasured and well loved with us, i think airabelle knows this and is at peace leaving her daughter safe in our hands.

airabelle, you were a beautifully kind and loving dog and will be so greatly missed.

and another sad loss….

mo lost her beloved ripley this morning, he and his brother gizmo were two of the very first saints. i called them the box babies. 5 tiny, flea infested kittens abandoned in a box 13 years ago in the middle of a heat wave. only three were alive when they were found and i named them tinderbox, tacklebox and trinketbox. trinket died within a few days but against all odds tackle and tinder made it. these two were phenomenal babes, i had never met anyone like them and i intended to keep them…that is until mo came. she saw right away how special they were and when she offered them a home, i knew they would be incredibly loved by her.
2 little very special tossed away cats..and mo loved them with all of her heart.
rest in peace gizmo beside your brother…mo carries you both safely forever inside her huge heart.

the commitment

Posted: August 15, 2017 at 7:10 pm

i think there is something important to recognize about SAINTS…

what we do here, how we do it…why we do it has nothing to do with what gets tossed in our way.

it doesn’t matter if the going gets tough, if sadness overwhelms us, if donations temporarily dry up.
it doesn’t matter if it rains, it shines, in drought, in heat waves, in snow covered ground and frozen pipes.
it doesn’t matter if there are staff sick calls or volunteers away on holidays, it doesn’t matter if people regard us as heroes or voodoo dolls.
it doesn’t matter if we are tired or insanely busy, or if everything that can possibly go wrong, goes wrong in a single day..if washers or dryers stop working, if the power goes out or the well goes dry or contaminated bags of grain feed launches grain mites loose in our shop. it doesn’t even matter if one of our much loved animals has just broken our hearts…

we deal with whatever it is. we get our shit back together one way or another. we wipe our tears with our shirt sleeves, and go feed the animals dinner. we step up to the plate no matter what.

that is what makes us sustainable. that is what determines that we are here for the long haul.
this absolute, unshakeable, moment to moment commitment to the immediate and continued wellbeing of every single saints animal.

i am not saying that we are perfect, that we don’t make mistakes…but we learn from those lessons even if it is the hard painful way.

we are not weenies, we do not crumble and sink to our knees, wailing that its all too hard….when the shit hits the fan here we problem solve solutions, we plan interventions, we find alternatives, we mickey mouse shit together with duct tape and bungies until help shows up.

and i tell you why we can do this…because we don’t have a choice. the animals depend on us to figure it out and make it right.

the credo in rescue is…”its all about the animals” but this is not always is often about a lot of other things too.
but first and foremost, for us here at saints…whatever it is, we will deal with because we will not let it get in the way of taking care of the animals need each and every day.

we are not just commited…we absolutely love this freaking place and we won’t let them down.
good days or bad days…we will be right here working away.

a very, very sad day today…

Posted: August 14, 2017 at 6:03 pm

edith was rushed into the vets first thing this morning and assisted to peacefully pass.
she was such a great cat.

edith came in a year? maybe 2? ago…i am not sure, my mind is fried tonight. but i remember when she came in…a hairless skeleton from untreated diabetes and parasite infestations.
but man she was a cool cat..she just kept ticking along. she never reached pretty…her hair while it did grow back, remained quite sparse. she did put on weight mostly because she ate A LOT! edith loved eating and she wasn’t picky. we could be feeding the dogs and she just helped herself during meal time preparations. her bowels were thick and enlarged so she always spouted a very rotund pot belly and when she pooped, it was as big as a dogs.
but we loved her. she was bright and cheerful and not afraid of anything. she just motored around where ever she wanted to..mostly in the kitchen, looking for food.

edith and i had this little routine at 9 pm each night, as soon as she knew i was getting zander’s insulin ready, she would pop on the counter and wait for hers. it was so cooperative of her to save me searching around to see where she it was convenient for her to position herself in plain view because insulin shots meant a meal was coming her way really soon.

she was an odd looking and funny little cat who wormed her way into all of our hearts.
rest in peace edith, we love and will really miss you.

today we also lost joy. the vet came out to help her peacefully pass away too.

once in a while i get their names so totally right. joy was a joy to all of us here. she was such a calm, kind and gentle cow. she was a wonderful foster mother to emily when she was a tiny babe. and when emily grew up as all babes do, she remained her very best friend.
joy came from the auction, she was sterile, non breedable and therefore useless to a dairy herd. the meat guy was bidding on her but so were we and with joy, we won the cow lottery. she was the perfect friend for our lonely percy and a great mom to orphaned em…the perfect cow family…they all loved each other to the moon and back. percy died a few years ago and today emily wailed with the loss of her mom.
joy died with all of the staff surrounding her, touching her, loving her, giving her comfort.
she died in the heart of love.

rest in peace joy, keep an eye on emily, she really misses her mom.

the ebb and flow

Posted: August 13, 2017 at 8:12 pm

i hung daisy, june and buddy’s wind chimes tonight…still sad about their losses. but sadder still because there are more to come.

hyde is not well..soon we will have to admit defeat. we are trying one more kick at the can but it is not really working. i am going to have to make an unhappy decision pretty soon.

joy has been having some really difficult days, she has been down several times and needed steroid injections and massive cool downs to get her back up on her feet. she is having trouble breathing and is really weak. the blood work came back this morning, she is in heart failure. steroids and cold wet towels are not going to cure this. they are a temporary solution that only work for a single day and then once the effects wear off, she is down again. there really are no medical treatments for heart failure in cows..most cows don’t get the chance to live long enough for their hearts to give out. and that’s pretty damn sad too.
both she and emily know that she is not well, tonight they are head snuggling and licking each other…it is heart wrenching knowing they love each other so…joy’s loss is really going to upset em.

edith is very ill. she spent yesterday at the vets, came home last night and was back in again this morning. i brought her home again tonight because there wasn’t anyone to watch her in the vets overnight. unless she makes a dramatic recovery, she will have to go back in tomorrow morning. i am thinking that whatever her blood work shows, it is not going to be good. my gut says this is a life threatening event and that is going to fucking suck.

i am telling you…heart break and loss sucks.
but to not to have known and loved these guys…now that would have been a terrible loss in all of our lives.

just need to keep my eye on the ball…all of them will eventually die, the goal tho is to ensure until then, they feel like life was really good.

ah fuck. i forgot to buy milk again for the third day in a row. it is not a big deal but it bugs me that i can’t remember something so simple.

even on crappy days, there is always something good….

thank you to everyone who works so very hard here…we truly are grateful. from just today i see treats new single bunny pen is done, and the wood pile has been stacked neatly and tarped, and rumor has it arnie has been busy scrubbing down the shop bathroom among other stuff plus with everyone’s combined efforts…all of the animals look perfectly comfortable and content.

pixie is home from emergency and is feeling a whole lot better…good enough to be a biting hag while at the clinic. apparently once she was feeling better she turned into a don’t bug me beast! a bunch of really kind folks from facebook donated to help with her and joys vet bills..i think sheila said $1500 came in. in this really lean donation season, this helps us try to meet some of the mountains of bills.
my sister and her family were here for the airshow and i was able to squeeze in a sushi dinner with them last night after work…maybe it was only for an hour or so but it was so great to see them all, a loving family is a wonderful gift.

and finally…i am glad the smokey haze is clearing, it was bugging my asthma so the fresher air feels REALLY good.

we are blessed…even on the sad days…we are surrounded by a small army of folks who truly care.