i am pretty sure now that tyra is having small strokes.

Posted: June 25, 2010 at 9:19 pm

she had that one little what i thought was a seizure the other day and another one again tonight. she is alert enough and eating and drinking ok as long as i bring it to her. she will get up to go outside to pee if i make her but mostly she just occasionally moves from bed to bed.

i took her out tonight but then phoebe got into her face and she lost her balance and sunk to the ground. she did not want to get up again so i carried her into the house but once she was in, she was able to walk on her own back to bed.


i find myself crying for the past 24 hours whenever i am alone and not busy concentrating on the tasks in front of me. part of it is the guilt from my getting mad at her on saturday night and between my upsetting her and griffin adding his 2 cents worth at the same time…totally freaking her out. i think the only other time i was ever really mad at her was many years ago…she used to attack the fence when my elderly neighbor was out puttering around in her garden…….but she was much, much younger, not teetering on the edge of her road.

and here is the other thing…in retrospect, i knew she was getting old. she stopped bombing around the farm months ago. lately she has just been hanging out inside the house and amusing herself stealing the cat food bowls. for the past year or so she has been losing control of her bladder and peeing on the beds.

i also realize now that when i got so mad at her…she was thinking about food in bowls and not about giving sammy shit. i think she thought i was mad at her over stealing the food…not over scaring the shit out of sammy and me in the dark.

whatever…the point is this…saturday night was the crises that brought