a christmas wish

i woke up with a headache..probably because i went to bed with a headache...funny how that works.
maybe is home and confined in the playpen so she cannot bump her eye on anything hard. i talked to the vet before her surgery..she said that eye could have ruptured from any kind of trauma..like running into something..except maybe doesn`t really ever run. BUT she does periodically fall off the karunda beds onto her face...this is the trouble with very short legs. she said she would know more after she actually got into it..but i haven`t had a chance to talk with her post surgery yet.
as long as it was not a tumour....that is what i am most worried about.

this set of days off i need a double feed and supply run to get us thru this week and right thru til after the new year. i think today i will be making my lists and checking them twice and maybe doing a dump run or three or four to clean out the shop space a little bit more.
there are days i wish we had a big truck..the van is great but not always big enough.

christmas comes always with a few sad thoughts attached...like this will be my last christmas with maudie...like...so many animals will never find a real home to share in the family festivities and get presents under the tree to open....like..while others share the happiness and gifts of christmas cheer....many are suffering alone in a crappy back yard somewhere.

christmas is the quintessential yin and yang of real life..over the top with lovely and pretty and kind happy thoughts.....and the absolute dark and dreary and all alone pit stops.
for those of us in a decently good hearted place, it is where we feel lucky and shamefully guilty at the same time.

i have learned that i and the animals can live in an imperfect life here because we have faith in each other and hope for tomorrow....but sometimes i think about those who do not even know of the existence of faith and hope....and that makes me sad.

abbotsford animal control is ending their contract at the end of the year...any animals not claimed or adopted or taken in by rescue will be euthanized. BC rescues and other individuals are working hard to find a place for everyone before their contract ends....it would be a nice gift of hope and faith for any of the animals left there if someone came and gave them a great home.

that is my christmas wish this year.