he may look happy in that picture...but he wasn't happy here, not for a single moment...he was an old sick dog who did not know where he belonged any more...he was overwhelmed by all of the uncertainty in his life in the past few weeks.
the night of his stroke..he was laying by the front door...he was just so utterly sad that i took him out to the medical room with doris and yoshi where it was quieter and less crowded...i had hoped he would be happier there.
all i did was give him one more change..one further stress in not knowing where he was again..one more brick to add to his pile of uncertainty.
moving him last night was a mistake.
the vet said he was going to stroke anyway..maybe...but maybe not last night.
and i totally get that these guys are homeless...and i did not do this to any of them. but i am the one who watches them suffer...whether they come thru it to the light and some happiness again like bibi did..or if they just fall into the darkness forever feeling lost and alone.
Rest in peace, Monkey Face. I love you and will miss you.