so while i was soaking in a sagey bombed out bath…

Posted: July 11, 2012 at 7:53 pm

i was thinking about the other half of the thingy question..what do i think is my biggest accomplishment?

and if the truth be told..i think my biggest accomplishment was learning to live comfortably inside my very own flawed and fairly insignificant skin. i wasted so much time wanting to be someone else…the perfect daughter, sister, wife, mother, nurse and rescuer..i also wanted to be a free spirit hippy, a pious devoted nun and a world renowned architec who built awe inspiring structures that lasted right thru to the end of time…( i read atlas shrugged as a teenager.) i wished that i had lived during the slavery times or gone to vietnam to care for the wounded soldiers, or even to africa to help all of the orphaned by aids children…i so wanted to help right some totally screwed up world.

but really i was simply a self made square little peg surrounded by round holes that wanted to fit comfortably in somewhere. and where i felt most comfortable and at home was in the company of other little square pegged animals.

saints is the byproduct of learning that i can just be who i am..i don’t have to be great, i don’t have to be special, i don’t have to be perfect..i just have to be ok on most days with being uniquely me.

someone should tell us on the day we are born that we are all one of a kind..then we could all just relax and get going on our journey without being afraid that we might get lost or left behind or not measure up along the way.

once i quit feeling like i wasn’t who i wanted to be..i started being able to be who i am.

4 Comments on "so while i was soaking in a sagey bombed out bath…"

  • another Doreen says

    Like!

  • Marla in SD says

    Perfect!

  • Sandi says

    That realisation is a big accomplishment indeed. Most people go through an entire lifetime without understanding that & expend a lot of energy & emotion trying to ‘measure up’.

  • Linda says

    You should do a speach as such at schools. So many parents and teachers (not all) try to slot square pegged kids into round holes. Not all kids are destined to be doctors or lawyers and as I once read in a book about kids with ADD or ADHD, some kids are just lucky to complete a race, not come in first , second or even 20th. We are all different. The suicide rate for teens is on the rise and I think this is one reason why.

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