ok..i am on a roll. you guys might want to skip this post.

have you ever thought about real suffering?
african children orphaned by both parents before they are 7..kidnapped and trapped into violent warfare as child soldiers until someone from either side bludgeons them to death?
10 year old girls sold into sexual slavery?
women and children who are beaten regularly by drunken, enraged fathers and husbands?
people alive in a vegative state, kept physically alive by feeding tubes and respirators?
what about the aboriginols on virtually every continent...living in beaten down abject hopeless misery and poverty?
the profoundly mentally ill who are tormented daily by voices or thoughts inside their heads?
the 30 year old palliative cancer patients who are counting the moments of their life until they are dead?

the 98 year old demented, blind and deaf immobile person in a wet diaper tied to their chair or their bed?
humans who suffer unbearably every single day of their lives.
and we do not euthanize.

or what about the wild and free animals who have nothing to do with human life? they become injured, they become ill. they suffer irredeemable pain with no one to help them? they starve or they freeze, or they are driven away from their homes, or they are hunted and killed by humans or other animals. their lives nor their deaths are easy..their lives are difficult and full of various kinds of suffering and their deaths are usually painful. we don't euthanize them to end their suffering lives.

so here my thing about euthanizing animals.. i actually don't think i have the right. i do it because at times i feel i have no choice..but i don't think i EVER have the actual right. (and i would never euthanize a human..i don't care if suddenly it was legal or the person begged me to do it..i absolutely wouldn't.) in fact sometimes i wonder if there is an actual hell..if i will end up in there because of the animals i have ended the lives of with my interference. you may think that is silly..but sometimes it worries me.

none of us..human or animal has any choice in how or when we are born, or how hard or easy will be living our life. none of us has any say in how or when we actually die...(unless we commit suicide.)

why was i born to good and loving parents in a country that believed i had value and rights?
why was i born human to enjoy human priviledge and rights?
why has my life NOT been filled with unhappiness and constant suffering?

i don't know. but i do know how lucky i am and how great is the suffering in other worlds.

do we kill every creature who suffers, be they animal or human?

or is sometimes suffering just another part of being alive?

i was thinking about all of this in the bath tonight.

what a whacked out mind!