everyone needs to say their good byes to moses

Posted: February 4, 2007 at 8:26 am

because with the first available appointment, i am letting him go.

he had such a great day yesterday, and how i wish we could give him those kind of days everyday. but we can’t, right now i can’t even keep him safe, and he suffered last night and i am so very sorry.

at midnight i went in there to try to relight the fire, it took almost an hour because i couldn’t bend low enough to see what i was doing. it was cold. moses was good, happy to have some one with him. he stood next to me and i hugged and kissed him in between tries. once i got it lit, i closed up the doors and he climbed up on the futon for a sleep.

and sometime during the night or the early morning he slipped off, just his hind end, it was trapped in the corner with his legs underneath between the wall and the futon and there he silently struggled to get himself back up. i found him at 7 am when i went back in to open the door again. he was looking at me, quietly, he had lost control of his bowels.

i climbed up and laid on the futon and tried to lift him back up, but his legs were too far under and i just couldn’t do it. he panicked and started to struggle, sensing again that maybe he could be free.

i crawled back to the wheel chair and pulled the futon out as far as i could and climbed back up and pushed moses off and down to the floor. he fought to stand, but his backs legs could not grip and support him so i finally lifted all of him back up on to the futon and held him up. finally he got some balance and he was able to get off the futon and quickly went out thru the doors. where now he is wandering and alternately squatting, needing to move both himself and his bowels once again.

i can’t keep him safe, i barely was able to help him this morning. i am not able to care for him well any more. i am so, so sorry moses.

 

6 Comments on "everyone needs to say their good byes to moses"

  • Jean says

    Oh Moses, I will be so sad to see you go and yet I know it is time. You are precious beyond words.

  • Chris says

    Carol please give Moses a hug from me. I absolotely adored him when I was there. One of my most favourite memories from that day is of him repeatedly coming over to see me for a hug. Nothing but sweetheart in that guy!

  • Deb says

    Moses has lost his will and his way, Carol. The loving thing to do, the only thing to do, is help him end his helpless and hopeless wandering peacefully. He trusts you to do what is right for him, which is what you will do, because you adore this special, lovely, enchanting boy. Moses has many friends, he will leave this part of his journey on the wings of angels.

  • Maureen says

    Yes, it is time, I wish I’d known Moses as a young healthy dog, he is the kind of dog as a child I was drawn to. I will miss him terribly , he & Cole were the 1st to become my barn cleaning buddies, the cleaning takes twice as long due to the hugs & kisses breaks , but the time shared was priceless.

    Today I will tell him that many love him & he is going somewhere where he will run strong & see far, he is not be scared as there will be others to meet him & he will be missed greatly & thought of often .

    Carol I’m sorry you had to deal with that this morning.

  • Nicole says

    I’m glad he got to be the star yesterday, just walking the circle getting more and more treats.
    there are liver brownies in the bottom of the fridge from colleen, (not the big brown ones those are for the horses).
    Please give him a big hug from me.

  • Rae says

    Good-bye sweet Moses. I’m so sorry Carol, saying Good-bye is so hard. I sounds like Moses is ready to start on his next journey. Everyone will miss you, your sweet personality and beautiful kisses. Please give him a hug and a kiss for me. Hugs for you to Carol!!!!

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